I’m not a rich woman (yet). Not rich in the way society sees rich… although I suppose it depends on who is judging me and by what standards. On the outside looking in you can see I live in a nice house, have 4 cars and have traveled all around the world… but, do these ‘things’ define how rich we truly are?
Fuck it, I’m gonna admit it, I am rich… like, proper rich. I am wealthy in ways that blow my mind… daily they blow my fucking mind.
I wake up with 2 children squashed into my warm (beautiful, healthy, imperfect and sexy to its lovers eye) naked body, the arm of a handsome man wrapped around my waist and 2 old cats who have been filling our home with purrs and love for over 10 years.
Every day of my life my heart bursts with love of the little wonders and joys of life. Every day I say ‘Thank You Universe’… ‘One more day with this lot please’, and think ‘How lucky am I?… thank you Universe!’ ‘More of this. More of this, thank you! ‘
While I sip fresh coffee and eat a nourishing breakfast with my family we watch the abundance of wildlife making itself present in our imperfectly perfect little garden. I squeal with excitement as the pheasants, deers, robins, kites, blackbirds and the dozy pigeons that come to graze… how fucking lucky are we?!
On the last day of the Christmas holidays I dropped my 10-year-old daughter and her friend off in the village for their first “adult-free” outing. The excitement in their faces was so cute, and set my mind into recalling old memories in discovering my own pieces of freedom at that age. I felt such excitement and enjoyment in my job in being a mum. The blessings of being able to experience this responsibility in deciding when its right to loosen the apron strings and see my daughter take another step upon her journey of growth and evolution.. how fucking awesome is that?!!!
I took my youngest daughter and her friend out for the morning, I watched through the rear view mirror as they sang their 6-year-old hearts out so much, they were laughing their heads off in pure joy… then I began to cry behind my sunglasses, my smile was so big my tears fell over the top of my cheeks and down the back of my neck like rivers of joy.
I’m so damn lucky that I (yes, me) have the pleasure of being a Mummy, of being a part of their little World and to observe their little moments… to vibrate from their purity, their innocence, excitement and see their wonder of the world.
I am so rich because, today I brought food for my massive family and had exactly the amount in my purse, in vouchers and cash, to pay for it. I have 8 round my dinner table every night and the bonds and love for my family is thicker than gold and stronger than diamonds, the amount of love around that dinner table is enough to feed the world!
I’m so rich because I feel the love of all humans… a man knocked on my door that afternoon and handed me my purse that I had dropped out of my shopping bag on the pavement … I called out to him as he jogged down my steps ‘Thank you for being so awesome’… and he beamed the best smile back to me and said, “Happy New Year to you!” I felt so fucking rich to have these bonds with humans on this Earth. My heart bursts – YES!!!
HOW I GOT SO RICH?
1) I am rich because I FEEL rich. I learned to feel rich… On days when I woke up feeling the poorest I have ever felt, I knew that I had to look for things that I am grateful for. I would look for things that I knew were a representation of abundance – from the socks on my feet to the toothbrush in my bathroom… I would grow that feeling of gratitude and blessing, even if I had to pretend… this would raise my vibration enough so I could attract more of that feeling and get myself out of the slump – I KNOW that good things happen when our vibration is high.
2) I am so rich because I am courageous! I learned to feel the fear of every day pressures and ‘pivot’ the feelings. If I am scared I honour that feeling, I listen to it and I reason with it. Then I look for hope, faith and trust… and, in an ounce of hope I find balance… giving a rope of light to hang onto like a guide as I take steps in places that scare me! I have faith in knowing that these steps always prove to be the most rewarding.
3) I’m so rich because I have joy in my life. I have learned to be so mindful in my thoughts that I can create joy in every second. Life will give us challenges… therefore we need to find the joy in these lessons… there is always joy. Find it!
4) I’m so rich because I have love in my life. Even on days when I woke up and didn’t feel loved, days when I didn’t even love myself, I would not let myself go so far in ‘self woe’ that I couldn’t see a spark of love. It starts with a smile… a simple smile. I would feel love for my beating heart and imagine it smiling back at me… then imagine my stomach smiling back at me as I said thank you for working. I’d do this with all parts of my body until eventually I would have a smile on my actual face… when I had a smile on my face the world would smile back and me… and I would feel love!
5) I’m so rich because I have water and food… even on days in my life when the cupboards were bare and there was only half a bag of peas in the freezer (and there really have been many dark times when I wondered how we were going to eat) I just had to trust day by day that we would be ok. I knew that to create more in my life I had to be grateful for what I had already… so I would be grateful for the water that we had, I would let myself imagine what it would be like if one day I turned on the taps and there was no water… and that would awaken my appreciation for the water in my taps! I hold gratitude for whatever it is I do have and not what I don’t.
6) I am so rich because I have friends, family and a successful business that serves the Earth. I have opportunities and choices. Even when times have been tough and relationships pulled, I have held onto the threads and felt the love… no matter what, I have been able to look at everyone in my life and feel love and forgiveness for them.
7) I’m so rich because I have learned to CHOOSE how I feel and I choose to feel abundant, joyous, light and blessed. Now that, for me, is RICH.
Dear God I’m so fucking rich… Thank You, Thank You… More of this, more of this please.
