Anyone on this path to self awarness, self discovery and mysctal enlighenment will know that beautifI miss the wonder of discovering a whole new level of spirituality, the constant ‘ oh my god i cant never had a teacher to turn to, not in the way that i am now to my own students…o help guide me, to be there to ask questions.. and i certainly didn’t have a community of people to chat too and share my thoughts with.. not like the This is the flow tribe that has grown over the years….
I had no one i could turn to to ask abut my mad visions and experiences… i was all on my own… but every day for me was like being a kid in a candy shop wanting to try all the sweet, being excited by what they all looked like eveb thouyght i had no idea what they tasted like..
i would wake up to the sunshine, the rain.. the clouds or the fog and be blown away by the magic of the sky, i would rise at 515 and meditate because the feeling was so dam good, it was so addictive.. it was my way into another world… into ME… meditate for me was was like eating choclate for breakfast and then feeling the energy last an enture day.. my house would be clean, and the infinite posibilities of life was all around me .. and even though, life was far from perfect, we were broke and had tax bills to pay.. it didn’t matter because i was discovering and going deeper into my own power, my own connecttion to myself, to god and to the mysteries of the angelic world.. including jesus.. (that one took a while to be ok with!!!)
i was getting downloads from the universe, i knew things i never knew before.. i had great signsts about people, i began to see the future and see people… beyond their masks.. some people said they were fightedn of me becsue they knew i could see though their soul and they felt exposed.. and i could, i could see theyr relationiships with themselves and others.. i began healing people, working with reiki enegry and meditaion to bring peace, and i would see things… visions.. people would come to me who had been tried for babies for years.. and i just had a knack of helping them get preogagnt… when i was in it it wasnt weird.. but from the outside it was werid
i could tell the universe i wanted rainbows to come today and they would appear out of thin air, i could get robins to land by my feet… i could stare out cloud busting them open and getting them to move… i could step ona bust train carrage and change the energt and have people smiling at me.. and each other… i was in wonder.. and u was in love.. with life, and every single person and thing in it… i was excited.. overly excited.. and i never ever ever ever wanted to come down
it was hard…it was hard for thoes around me who loved me.. bcause they didnt get it.. in fact my love of life was so irritating to people that they were so triggered by me they wouldnt talk about me..